February 22nd, 2021
Yesterday was such a great day. It was nice and sunny, and I think the
trend will continue for the rest of the week. I went to take a long
walk with my mom after staying in my house for like a week straight.
Didn't see that many people outside in a while, cafes are half open -
as in they're not letting people inside but they're still giving
coffee to go so people are hanging out and stuff. Can't believe almost
a year passed since the start of corona and the first lockdown. While
taking a walk we found a phone on the ground, luckily the kid that
lost it was searching for it on his bike so he got it back fast
because we spotted him. And on our way back home we found almost 30€
in cash so lucky us. I didn't find money on the ground for a long long
while. Sucks for the person that lost it though, I didn't see any lost
money posts on facebook groups yet. I'm finally relaxing a bit,
classes will start next week I believe.
February 17th, 2021
What a rough exam season. I had 11 courses, so far I knocked off 9 and
I'll have to leave one behind for the extra round in April. I'm still
addicted to a doll site and I need to chill out. Arguing with teens is
not that productive. I'm going back to messing around with this site,
I have some ideas and I'd love to revamp everything but I just feel
too tired for anything, I'm so exhausted. And physically I'm not doing
shit! It's driving me crazy.
One funny thing, with all the online arguments I've come to dislike
americans (no offense to all the americans reading this). I might
elaborate on this some other time. Also a lot of the arguments got me
thinking about things I didn't think about much before. Like for
example I see the mantra "sex work is valid if it's ethical,
all sex workers are valid, valid, VALID!!". And a weird realization hit me. I don't think commodification of
sex will ever be ethical in its purest sense... Of course sex workers
are not the ones to blame for this. I just can't imagine a man, a good
man (because let's face it, it's mostly men that buy women's bodies to
use them), going to a prostitute and buying sex like it's ice cream. I
don't know why but it rubs me the wrong way and I don't think I'd ever
take that man as an ethical person. Who does that? It's so weird!! I
always thought of sex work as you know, a profession as old as time,
it will always be here and it will always exist, so we may as well
legalize it and make it as safe as possible, or decriminalize the
workers, or make it illegal to make it go away or... or.. etc. I
always thought of it as a debate topic, something weird that people do
and get into. But I don't know... people that use this system, I just
can't understand them. Is it just ignorance or because sex isn't end
all be all for me, who knows. Just a weird thought. People like to
bring capitalism into it but sex work predates it. So it's not really
related to capitalism, just Man. Oh well.
February 5th, 2021
Ahh exam season has been making me pretty tired and lazy. But I got a
new addiction... a certain doll site. I've been having a lot of "fun"
on the forums, but I realized the generational divide is pretty big.
It seems like teens nowadays are really obsessed with being woke and
overly politically correct but at the same time they're quick to judge
and cancel you, a very nasty combination. So many of them are toxic
too, it's really a sight to behold. I was called racist at least 10
times so far for telling them to report and ignore trolls, probably
because they have no idea what trolls are and what their purpose is?
It's so funny. They call threads forums and they have no idea what
mods are. I don't blame them since this has probably been the first
interaction they ever had with a forum but this really makes me feel
like a boomer. Weird because I myself am on the cusp of gen Z. I'm
impressed at how much time they devote to canceling other minors and
kids for saying bad words, even the owner of the site is getting caugt
in the crossfire for not "holding people accountable" despite the code
of conduct being extremely tight and strict. Anyway that's been my
main past time lately. I made my profile look really cute. I've also
been working on another webpage that I'll put on here, I'm just not
really satisfied with the contents on it. I was thinking of revamping
everything and making diary into a separate page looks wise but I'll
see. I'm not sure if I want things to be cohesive or all over the
place at this point. Probably option 2 because I just want to dick
around. Other than that life has been quiet, earthquakes aren't
stopping but I got used to them at this point. I mostly caught up with
my schoolwork, oh and I got a new phone! I tried messing around a bit
with custom widgets, making my own widgets etc. and it's pretty fun
although I hate how the widgets lag behind sometimes. Rip my old
xperia, you had a good run.